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23:37 – It’s not going good at all
[Warning - Graphic Descriptions of Self Harm in Post] It’s just getting worse. Worse and worse. I feel really low and the only thought revolving around my head is to cut myself. I want to make it clear...
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15:15 – Last appt with Mr Psychiatrist and a trip to A&E
Trigger Warning – graphic talk of self harm in this post All I have been able to think about for days now is cutting. Cutting, cutting and more cutting. The more I try to distract myself the more...
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19:09 – A surprise phone call
Today has actually been quite a busy day for me and I’m feeling pretty shattered after yet another crappy night’s sleep. I met my Mum and my Gran at 12.30 and we went for lunch as my Gran was going...
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01:36 – A confused and messed up girl
My head is still pretty messed up and sadly the regrets over self harming so severely on Sunday night still haven’t kicked in. Last night was pretty horrendous, I became extremely emotional and sat...
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00:21 – Terrified of the wrong side winning
“Do you know what I’m really terrified of? The wrong side winning. It’s as though my mind has split in two and I have no control over it. And the thing is, I’m beginning to get confused about which...
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18:00 – The sexual assault: one year on
*Talk of sexual assault/abuse that might be triggering* Today marks one year exactly since the sexual assault happened. It was probably around this same time of day that I’m writing this as well. A...
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16:54 – In a pretty crappy place right now
So yeah, I spent the weekend getting drunk by myself. Sitting here pouring glass after glass of wine and drinking it at a ridiculous speed. I don’t know what I hoped to achieve by doing that, I guess I...
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01:15 – A temporary safety plan
Today I have tried my hardest to start being honest with people. Best friend text me out of the blue last night asking how I was. I contemplated sending the “fine thanks” reply but decided that no, I...
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15:12 – Bad weekend, A&E, self harming and more
**Please note this post is (a) very long and (b) contains talk of self harm so could be triggering** Since I last posted things have been shit. Beyond shit in fact. The constant urges, needs,...
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23:45 – To go or not to go…
I must apologise in advance if I ramble more than usual but I’ve been drinking a really classy (yes that is sarcasm) drink for the past few hours called Dragon Soop. It is £2.99 per can (crazy...
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